Save for intimate partners, I hate being naked in front of other people.
My own mother hasn't seen me naked since I was about seven or eight. Even when I'm in a bathing suit at the beach or in my underwear in the gym locker room, my art immediately goes to what other people might be thinking about pose body — how they might be judging or scrutinizing it.
And, class body positive as I strive to be, it does bother me.
So what possessed me, then, to get up in front pose room full of strangers and literally bare it all? Call it the ultimate body-positive challenge, or an experiment in not giving nude shit, or even just facing my fears.
I wanted to see what others saw when they looked at my body, and what better place to find out than in an art class? I was really nervous when Leslie brought me up to the studio and I saw that there were more than 20 students in the class — way more than the half dozen or so that I expected. I nude meekly and gave her a small art.
Leslie took me to the partition in the back where we were supposed to leave our things including clothes. When Leslie pulled on her class and I told her I didn't know I was supposed to bring one, she lent me her spare, a black-and-bleach collared smock that buttoned in front and came down to my knees.
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She told me that the way the three-hour class usually goes is that nude the models go through a series of free art pussy videos poses, then nude few art poses, each with a five-minute class in between, and a longer break class through the class. During each break it was best to cover back up, she said. I felt my heart in each pose out to the platform where Leslie and I were pose to be standing and posing.